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notquiteisraeliI hate venting about all the ways my body is dysfunctional, but hey, that's what blogging is for.
In addition to impatiently awaiting my cardiologist appointment to find out just how much I'm screwed when it comes to my cardiac issues, I'm really hoping the doctor clears me for exercise and refers me to a nutritionist. I am not terribly keen on losing weight, though I'm not not keen on losing weight. Honestly, I just want to keep myself together, and eating better and exercising are the way to do that. So is quitting smoking, which I'm also doing. Yeah, that's a thing. I am finishing out my (not inconsiderable) stash, which could take another month or so. After that I'll go on the patch, which has helped me in the past.
So, the cardiac issues: I still tire easily. I still lack energy. It bleeds into my psychiatric stuff. Am I depressed because of bipolar disorder? Reeling emotionally because I had a fucking heart attack aged only 44? Does it matter, as long as I do something about it?
There are other issues, too. I'm very much perimenopausal. I've managed to get the hair loss managed. But I still get hot flashes. And again, am I cranky because I'm hormonal? Is it bipolar disorder? Again, does it matter, as long as I manage it?
I still have seizures occasionally. Eyal manages them well. And migraines. Fun stuff. Not to mention recurrent digestive issues, which are the perennial side effect of psych meds.
Topping all this off, I just don't recover from even minor injuries as quickly as I did. I banged my back against the kitchen island almost a week ago. Only today have I been able to go without ibuprofen. It still aches, but I can live with it.
And that's enough for now.
In addition to impatiently awaiting my cardiologist appointment to find out just how much I'm screwed when it comes to my cardiac issues, I'm really hoping the doctor clears me for exercise and refers me to a nutritionist. I am not terribly keen on losing weight, though I'm not not keen on losing weight. Honestly, I just want to keep myself together, and eating better and exercising are the way to do that. So is quitting smoking, which I'm also doing. Yeah, that's a thing. I am finishing out my (not inconsiderable) stash, which could take another month or so. After that I'll go on the patch, which has helped me in the past.
So, the cardiac issues: I still tire easily. I still lack energy. It bleeds into my psychiatric stuff. Am I depressed because of bipolar disorder? Reeling emotionally because I had a fucking heart attack aged only 44? Does it matter, as long as I do something about it?
There are other issues, too. I'm very much perimenopausal. I've managed to get the hair loss managed. But I still get hot flashes. And again, am I cranky because I'm hormonal? Is it bipolar disorder? Again, does it matter, as long as I manage it?
I still have seizures occasionally. Eyal manages them well. And migraines. Fun stuff. Not to mention recurrent digestive issues, which are the perennial side effect of psych meds.
Topping all this off, I just don't recover from even minor injuries as quickly as I did. I banged my back against the kitchen island almost a week ago. Only today have I been able to go without ibuprofen. It still aches, but I can live with it.
And that's enough for now.
